A woman obsessed with tracking her exercise and calories was canceling her exercise plans and feeling ‘guilty’ if she didn’t move.
Dani Fernandes, 25, was a sports fan from an early age, but developed an unhealthy obsession with exercise and calorie counting as a teenager.
She developed an eating disorder and for two years went to the gym to walk as many steps as she could a day and track everything on a fitness watch.
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That habit led to her canceling plans and skipping holidays in favor of continuing to train.
After being hospitalized twice for bradycardia, where her heart rate was slower than normal, Dani spent six months in the clinic and is now fully recovered.
Now she spends her time reading and doesn’t feel “guilty” about not being physically active all the time. “My identity revolved around how much I worked out,” said Dani, a content creator from Atlanta, Georgia.
“I was obsessed with it. That’s all I could think about. I would cancel plans with friends, like road trips or movie nights. I isolated myself.”
“I used to feel entitled to eat by burning as many calories as possible. Now I can read for a few hours without feeling guilty or feeling like I have to move my body all the time. doing.”
Dani was once a football player who grew up training every day, but when he lost weight at the age of 15, he was told he could no longer play.
She said: “I started having an eating disorder. I looked so weak.” Dani replaced her training sessions with daily gym workouts.
She said, “Because I wasn’t playing soccer, I thought I was consuming fewer calories, so I restricted my diet even more. I started going to the gym even if I was tired.”
“I felt entitled to burn and eat as many calories as possible. I started moving as much as I could and restricting things as much as I could.”
“That day I was on schedule. I walk 30 minutes every day, and then the next day I walk 45 minutes and then I have to keep doing it. It just keeps adding up.”
Dani also tracked her calories and exercise with a fitness watch and app. She said, “I tracked everything. I wanted to control everything in my life. It was very calculated.”
“If my family goes on a trip, I stay home. I’d rather be comfortable in my daily routine. I walked so much that my feet hurt a lot.”
Dani began to realize that she was unhealthy and wanted to gain weight, but was having a hard time breaking free from her obsession.
“I wanted to change. I was miserable. My heart started to hurt. My chest hurt. I thought if I didn’t gain weight and recover and heal, I was going to die.” she said.
After being hospitalized with heart problems, Dani looked into where she could get help. She found a clinic in New York that offered free treatment in exchange for her research.
Dani visited the clinic in November 2017, with limited movement and daily therapy sessions to “retrain” her brain.
She spent six months in the clinic before returning home, but now her relationship with food and exercise has changed.
She eats three meals a day and has hobbies like reading instead of obsessing over exercise.
Dani says, “They saved my life. I feel better. Now I’d rather move to feel better than cut calories. I don’t body check.” “I don’t have any attachments. I feel free.”